True friendship.

~to a friend so true, so loving, so kind...~

Thinking of the day we met brings a smile to my heart,
Those two little angels whose friendship sparked right from the start
With the laughter and tears we shared together
The secrets we made, the pacts to each other,
We created a bond that would soon be our shelter...

As we grew and embraced each day as it came
We blossomed like flowers after the April rain
Now relieved of the burden of petth fights and brawls
There were bigger issues that drew us up the walls!

Of broken hearts and swollen eyes
Of stories told and clandestine lies
I found in you an angel true,
Who guided me out of the blue..
Who smikled at me when hope was gone.
Who held my hand until the dawn..
You were like a candle whose flame goes brighter in the darkness...

And now our parts have diverged again
We are torn apart I feel the pain
Everything will change as time flies by
But my love for you will never die.

I hope I have been half the friend you were to me,
For you are the best a friend could ever be;
If you ever need me, I'll be there for you
'Coz friendship never ends, and this bond will stay true...

~manndeep~
Augusut, 2004

~ Songs of my heart ~

Below is a list of songs that are close to my heart...
Music is food for the soul, indeed.

1.Kau Ilhamku..
(You are my inspiration)

Beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam...
Rembulan mengambang kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah.

Sedetik wajahmu muncul dalam diam
Ada kerlipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih ku ucapkan.

Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah...
Andai lagu ini menganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah...
Sekadar memori kita di arena in...

Kau ilhamku....

~Manbai~


note: This is just one of the songs that makes my heart skip a beat....for ties invisibly bound to it, for memories awakened by it...so very vividly, for reasons only known to my frail heart...


2. Ye hassen vaadiyaan - Roja

Ye haseen vaadiyaan ye khula aasmaan
Aa gaye hum kahan ay mere saajna
In bahaaron mein dil ki kali khil gayi
Mujhko tum jo mile har khushi mil gayi

Tere honthon pe hain husn ki bijliyaan
Tere gaalon pe hain zulf ki badliyaan
Tere baalon ki khushboo se mehke chaman
Sangmarmar ke jaisa ye tera badan

Meri jaanejaan ye hai teri chaandni
Chhed do tum aaj koi pyaar ki raagini

Tere aanchal ki chhaaon ke tale meri manzil mujhe mil gayi
Teri palkhon ki chaaon ke tale mohaabat mujhe mil gayi

Jee karta hai saajna dil mein tumko bitha loon
Aa masti ki raat mein apna tumko bana loon
Uthne lage hain toofan kya meer seene mein ay sanam
Tumhein chaahoonga dilon jaan se meri jaanejaan teri kasam

3. Humsafar - Silk Route

Hum jo chale, tum bhi chalo saath
Phir kya khabar ke din hain ke raat
Bas mein nahin rahenge jazbaat
Tum jo sanam hamare chalo saath....

Sur se saji geeton si teri
Tujhbhin sanam bhaye na koyi baat
Asie kaho chaloon aaj
Aao sanam sune hain dil ke saaz

Kaise bhi rahen ho kaisi dagar
koyi bhi rasta ho koyi safar ho
Chalte rahen hum jo tum humsafar ho

Din ye kahe bheto hamare saath
Aao idhar ishara kare raat
hum ko magar cahiye wohi shaam
jis par sanam likha ho tera naam

chandni raatein yann (........)
chahe din ka wo koyi paher ho
chalte rahein hum jo tum humsafar ho

Galiyon mein phirta hain banjara dil ye
Tujhko hi dhoondega awara dil ye
Karta hain jaane ishaare kya dil ye

*note: if anything can be super-special..thats this...beautifully crafted,
awesome voice, perfectly performed...and i simply love the lyrics...
simple, yet so profound

*...more to come*

Quotable Quotes and Thinkable Thoughts.

A smile has nothing to do with the teeth, and everything to do with the eyes.
-Bhatt

Even a stopped clock is right two times a day...
- Newsweek article

untitled

untitled.
if i were to pen down my life that's the heading it would bear.

like an untitled paper
a publication that's waiting,
waiting for someone to name it
identify its purpose
to spell out its gist
in black and white.

so am i, incognito.
searching for my reason
contemplating the purpose of my existence
vindicating everything i do
but i dont have an author
a make
a manufacturer.

i am just me.
made of sand and dust
donned in a soul
a mind that soars
a heart that longs...boundlessly
for things it should and not.

for, what are we without a purpose
an aim
an ambition
a conrtibution
merely populating this land like the rest?
but arent we superior?
weren't we the chosen species
to reign
to rule
but on whom?
on each other?
with intellect that transcends itself
what are we trying to achieve?
i have no answers.

looking for my own truth
i found a dark hole.
endless
that we are all engulfed in
suffocating
it goes round and round
taking us all into its endless motion
and once you are in,
there is no turning back
for you have been victimised...
victimised by the circle called life.

it may seem bright
only until you open your eyes.

looking into the mirror
i saw not a face
but a reflection
of light and darkness
of uncertainty
of joy engulfed in sorrow
of a past full of memories
of a future, undecipherable.

if the past is a basis of the future
i am an unfathomable collection of memories,
untitled.

Prayer

A prayer

All the prayers I lay by his feet,
Have now been answered without deceit,
Grateful being blessed with all my dreams,
Why was my heart still not at ease?

Was this all I really wanted?
Is this what my heart desired?
A fear arose and then I wondered,
Perhaps I didn't want it to be answered.

Across the oceans for a love so strong,
A journey away from where I belong;
I thought I knew what lay ahead,
But fate had plans I never made.

All by myself in a land unknown,
I was reaping what I had sown;
Where was the love that brought me this way ,
At times when I was weak and gray...

Now I realize it was an illusion,
Of love and lust, of care and passion;
I wish tht prayer I had asked,
Was never heard, never answered...

Love, Immortalised.

Yesterday
As your gaze fell on mine,
I lost my heart completely.
I was swept off my feet into a world of dreams, so swiftly.
Never will I understand why it had to end
Why was I left with my heart to mend?
But little did I know of how your heart longed for me,
Of the pain you hid so I could be free...

I never knew this love would last so long,
Through it all I barely realized we shared something so strong.
You have always been there like I never knew you would be
Like an anchor by the shore, holding on to our fantasy.
You never drifted though the tide took me worlds away from you,
You believed in me even when my shadow was out in the blue...
Words fail me when I think of how much you mean to me.
I wish life wasn't this cruel,
If only destiny could carve a smile at us.

Today,
Tears overwhelm me just to think how far we have come
But the future is still uncertain; we don't know the outcome...
The happiness of seeing you is beyond words
To hear you voice is to know that prayers are heard.

To bring us together, and tear us apart,
To feel each other, but only being close at heart...
Does He know what fate has thrown in our path?
For you and I may never be,
A truth that rips every inch of me...
Will I ever know if we are meant to be?

As I smell your breath when your cheek touches mine,
My heart skips a beat; the feeling is divine.
I wish to store this moment in my heart,
A place in time where love will never part.

Someday,
When the sun shines into our lives,
And happiness flows out of every smile;
If I am in your arms for that one last breath,
We will know that the path we took was indeed blessed.