Prayer

A prayer

All the prayers I lay by his feet,
Have now been answered without deceit,
Grateful being blessed with all my dreams,
Why was my heart still not at ease?

Was this all I really wanted?
Is this what my heart desired?
A fear arose and then I wondered,
Perhaps I didn't want it to be answered.

Across the oceans for a love so strong,
A journey away from where I belong;
I thought I knew what lay ahead,
But fate had plans I never made.

All by myself in a land unknown,
I was reaping what I had sown;
Where was the love that brought me this way ,
At times when I was weak and gray...

Now I realize it was an illusion,
Of love and lust, of care and passion;
I wish tht prayer I had asked,
Was never heard, never answered...